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Thursday, November 30, 2006

Updates! Updates!

Well ok nothing much actually, just an update on the Sentosa outing I had with my nieces, nephew and cousin two days back. Being a Singaporean, I can say that Sentosa is a good way to attract tourists, and locals alike. I wonder how it would be like when the IRs are ready, whether the visitorship to Sentosa would be affected. It's super packed now man!

The last time I went to Sentosa was a year back, with the Indon boys of Prosatanica and my sisters of metal. hahaha. Things haven't changed much. Actually we only spent time at Palawan Beach and the Magical Fountain thereafter but I got more out of this trip la. The Skyride and luge were awsome! The scenery up there (Imbiah Peak) is superb I tell you, and feeling the wind brush against my cheeks is simply breathtaking. I'd very much like to go up the Carlsberg Tower but alas, money matters. Furthermore I had the kids with me so I guess it isn't very appropriate. *Hint hint Josh* Besides that, we decided to "throw" our money away at Cinemania and 4D Magix. It pinches the pocket because it's too expensive but it's fine I guess, coz we had fun shouting and getting "stung by bees". hahahaha. To end the night, we went to the Magical Fountain and got awed(again) by the laser works and the cute monkey Kiki.

At the end of the day, the crowd was overwhelming and the queue for the shuttle bus was super long so we decided to walk all the way back to Harbourfront. I think it saved us lots of time, and at the same time we got to exercise. Well, that's for me la. I think the rest are fit enough. hahaha. Shouting our hearts out at the Sentosa Bridge, taking the wrong trams, swaying around in the super crowded blue line bus and getting a typical Singaporean annoyed look, eating hotdogs and fish fillet at Palawan, playing mother hen and camwhoring, it was a great day spent with my kiddies. :)

After all's said and done, here are some of the pictures we took. Didn't manage to take more because let me remind you, I'm a camwhore, not a photographer. hahaha. Perhaps another time ya.

[ Haikal cuz and me ]

[ Lisa . Nazirah . Danial ]

[ Nadiah . Lina ]

[ Suspended Bridge @ Palawan Beach ]

[ Palawan Beach ]

[ Camwhoring at the tram station ]

[ Danial is appalled by my cockyness @ the Magical Fountain ]

Ok that's all for Sentosa.

I went to the Victoria Concert Hall yesterday for the Babies Proms briefing with Jules and we decided to drop by Starbucks @ OCBC Centre after that to chill. Little did I expect to meet anyone but upon entering Starbucks, I just got this urge to look for seats outside(so I can smoke la what else) and I saw a familiar face. Both of us were not sure initially but after muttering each other's names from afar, both AIYA lovers we united. Cheyyy macam fairytale la.

Yalah it was somewhat like a fairytale coz this is the very first time I meet Efa. The previous time we had the outing planned, she couldn't make it so I just met Vivian then. Next would be Nix, the last time we spoke she said she got a job in SG. Now time for me to go to KL and meet Sabrina and Sharon, then to Phils to meet Katz and Sheila. AIYA reunion la, since the show and the website itself is already as good as non-existent. Ehh what happened to the forum man!! So many spammers!

A great weekend planned out with my cousins.
Sleepover babeh!!!
Say yeyyyy!~

Will update again soon.

Endnote;
I want some Ben & Jerrys please!

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11/30/2006 07:02:00 PM

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Monday, November 27, 2006

I just spent a spankin $56 for my visit to the doctor's. Dammit! I'd rather spend that money on a pair of jeans from DP or some discounted item at M&S. bleurgh! But he's damned good la hor. I didn't need to tell him but he automatically told me to stop smoking. Wahh how he know ar? Apparently my cough is getting really bad that I'm wheezing now due to the blockages of phlegm in my lungs. Aaaarrgghhh! *haaakkk ptuiii!*

Ok she's looooooosing it.

So anyways I made babyboy leave his books to chat up with me last night but the good thing is that we were talking about studies. hahaha. So I was asking him what exams were coming up and what he told me made me feel so stupid, with the "wahhh so cheeem ar" kinda reaction.

7th - Macroeconomic Analysis for Business Decisions
8th - Third World Negotiations
11th - Theories of War
12th - Law & Finance

WTF!!! Macroecons is oklah I think because I've been there and done that, but analysizing business decisions through macroecons? Ermmm...yea ok. Third World Negotiations and Theories of War? Adoi apa ini? Somehow I visualize Nelson Mandela and Hitler sitting in a room, trying to discuss on a treaty and those other things like Marxism or something. hehe goes to show how clueless and stupid I am. The last paper is acceptable la coz it's not that scary and I've done parts of both law and finance before.

All the best Joshie!

Ok now I wanna sleep. It's only 10pm but there's nothing on TV. Well there's the Ms World swinsuit thingy but blahhh, all skeletons walking down the runway so I'll pass. And anyways I've got a long day tomorrow with my lil nieces, nephews and cousin. SENTOSA!

weeeeeeeeeee.....

Endnote;
why do you call me, when you know I can't answer the phone? the weakness in me.

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11/27/2006 09:42:00 PM

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Saturday, November 25, 2006

This is gonna be a very random post ok, so bear with me.

Blogging at such an ungodly hour simply means one thing, or perhaps two. One- Sir Insomnia is back to haunt me, or two- my body systems are going bonkers on me. I'd go with the latter though. Mixing red wine and liquor was a no-no. Yana is sucha liar. Just less than two weeks back she got tipsy on Tiger beer and red wine and promised that that would be her last, but just hours ago she's chugged vodka and wine. And yea ciggies baby! What an ass!

My readers would probably be happy right now coz after a brief hiatus, I'm back with multiple entries. But I believe this is gonna be another one of those shortlived blogging frenzy days. Oh wells, at least you guys have something to read about, then bitch about later. :)

I think I'm down with tonsilitis, again! I've been coughing like a bitch and my throat fucking hurts right now. And fever! I fucking hate fever, makes me feel super useless. Not that I'm not already useless as it is. bleurgh. But my voice is alright, at least it's normal as compared to my previous tonsilitis which left me with my transverstite sister Lulu aka Lionel's voice. hahahaha. Yana is sick-ed = yanaSicked, pun intended! Yea lame I know.

Was on Skype with sugarpops(eewww so meluat) just now and things got better. It's Thanksgiving there, whatever the occasion is, but he's already mugging for his exams which will only start on the 6th of Dec! You see la all these clever studious people, so kancheong! But then again I think this is a norm for general standards. Unlike the general public, it is only ideal for me to start mugging a day before my paper. Classic procrastinator fashion. Oh come on admit it peeps, I'm not alone right? *winks*

Back to sugarpops, okok I shall stop it. Back to Joshua. I'm glad he's doing well; walking on his own, without any support. Jia you! But you ar don't gatal go drive again ok. I'll give you 6 months probation as of December 2006 so you can only drive as of May 2007! This is an order, for safety's sake! Sucha sweetheart, sometimes I wonder what is wrong with me, not appreciating such a lovely person in my life. And I'm still questioning myself on this. When you ask me, "How's Josh?" I'll say, "Ok I guess" or "Dunnolah, can't be bothered." But I am bothered. I hope he is ok, if not very well. No we're not in a relationship, we're just emotionally involved I guess. B can I use the word emotionally involved? Can la eh, you know I know la love.
(PS Ryan: You can go puke now)

Oh man... I've run out of porn to watch! Vomit porn, normal porn, BJs whatever. You might be thinking this girl's whacked out but I think watching porn is normal. What's so good about porn you may ask? I dunno eh. Perhaps when you first watch porn you'll get curious and excited but when you've watched alot of porn, it's actually nothing interesting. For me it's solely the auditory experience which entices me; I get turned on by the moaning and all the ahhhs and urhhhs. Or perhaps if the girl/guy is good-looking then that will be another question altogether. Auditory experience is very important to me; technicality in drumming, vomit sounds etc. Afterall the ear is a very important organ. See no evil, speak no evil, think no evil, do no evil- it's all your personal values, whether or not you wanna see, tell, process or act. But it's very difficult to hear no evil because it comes from someone else and cannot be avoided. You can't simply put cotton in your ears and say you hear no evil. You can pretend to not hear, but you will eventually.

Waddahell, porn to evil? Told you I'm very random.

Ok what else?

I've been listening to Christina Aguilera's Hurt as well as Joan Armatrading's The Weakness In Me. Super touching songs, makes me wanna bawl my eyes out but no I'm not that crybaby-ish. Downloaded a few Britney Spears' older tracks and Backstreet Boys' as well. Back to the late 90s man, to those days when boybands and lip-syncing female singers rule the music industry. Nothing wrong in going back to a familiar domain right? :)

Hmmph ok the cough medicine is starting to kick in. Woozy woozy.

Ok before I end, here's something lame courtesy of Sheena.
What do you call a castrated Russian?
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Vladmir Kachakokov (cut-ya-cock-off)

:)

Peace out yo!

Endnote;
Zilch. yawnzzz....

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11/25/2006 04:33:00 AM

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Friday, November 24, 2006

Pt. 1
2:30pm

Sometimes words which are intended to improve situations come out so wrong it makes things worst instead. It was never my intention to hurt you over and again, never. Believe me when I say that I'm trying my best to take things one at a time and accept the realities that's coming my way. It's not easy.

You said it yourself, I'm just a spoilt, selfish brat who had things going easy for me. I admit, I am. I never understood hardship, I never understood the simple meaning of independance. But I understood that it took you a whole lot of courage to come clean with me about your condition. I understood how much you had to go through the past year. I understand the meaning of pain and being hurt. And that's the reason to why I can't do this, even for your sake. Because I can never be like you. I can never be strong enough. Understanding is just a part of this, I have a long way to go.

Blame it on my phobia, blame it on my fear. It's just my mental state. Emotionally, physically, psychologically, I am not prepared. Please give me another chance, chance(s) if possible. At least give yourself a chance to understand me. Me, the conceited, selfish spoilt brat.

"... there's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance to look into your eyes and see you looking back. i'm sorry for blaming you for eveything I just couldn't do. if I just had one more day, I'd tell you how much I've missed you since you've been away, and I've hurt myself by hurting you..."

Endnote;
I know deep within my heart, it doesn't matter if it's wrong or right, I need you.

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Pt. 2
11:38pm

Just got back from the Arts Management BBQ thingy. So much for interaction, there wasn't much between the 3 levels but it was somewhat a segregation between the levels. Level 2 attendance was very pathetic I'd have to say but we had our fun. Think red wine and Vodka Raspberry courtesy of Abang which Cheryl "spiked" into our drinks. hahahaha. And of course cramping 6 of us into Sheena's VW Beetle and going round Changi looking for bapoks and yaya-oh OCH hunt(which didn't happen btw).

Now on to a serious note and to touch abit on my previous post. I really don't understand hardship and I'm ashamed. Sometimes just talking to that cousin can touch me so deep. He's lost his mom, his elder siblings are both married and living their own lives, father got married to a wayy younger girl and he's all alone now. And to think that just about a year or so back, he went through that particular "labyrinth" in his life. We were on MSN and he said, "babe, I lapar la" and my heart just sank. If his place is like 5 minutes away I would go there to bring him food. I have lots in my fridge anyways, hence my eating habits. And sometimes I throw tantrums just because the chicken in the soup is cut into small pieces, or the soy sauce is too salty when it is actually my fault for putting too much of it into my dish. He on the other hand, is getting thinner and thinner. Nobody to take care of his food, well-being or even feelings. I just don't want him to go back to his old habits and destroy himself coz he's got a bright future ahead of him.

Oh wells, he is smart enough and I really do hope he takes care of himself.

We had some lucky draw just now and was supposed to pick cards. Being me, I did my eenie meenie mineey mo thing but to J.O.S.H.U.A.Z.U.L.F.I.Q.A.R and guess what, I won a Nero burning-ROM set! Oklah not very extravagant but at least I won something okay!

B you are my lucky star. I know I've been an ass alot of times but I beg you not to hate me. Because I know that hating me only means hating yourself so stop inflicting self-torture onto each other. Life is short and you know that so let's live life to the fullest. I can't wait for your return this Christmas! First destination, Fort Road okay? Love.

Endnote;
i'm surprised that you've never been told before that you're priceless and you're precious even when you are not new. ...

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11/24/2006 02:54:00 PM

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Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Damned @!*%$*$^$#@*^# RYAN!!!
heh.

[edit] the following paragraph is a copy and paste portion direct from MSN at 10:57pm so if excuse the omittence of some text coz I'm too lazy to re-edit. [/edit]

RyZuL welcome.to.the.black.parade. says:
mmmmaaaiiihhaaarrtttbleeeeedssnooomoooorrreeee!!!!!
<<>> says:
eh gimme back la
<<>> says:
i come take now ok?
RyZuL welcome.to.the.black.parade. says:
will get abang to send it over later
<<>> says:
huh what? abang is back?
RyZuL welcome.to.the.black.parade. says:
yes infact hes rite behind me now
<<>> says:
oi bedekkkkk laaaa siakkkkk
<<>> says:
aaarrrrggghhhhhh!!!!!
RyZuL welcome.to.the.black.parade. says:
abe percaya?
<<>> says:
kanina kasi org excited je tau
RyZuL welcome.to.the.black.parade. says:
hahahahaha so much for denial huh kak liyana?
<<>> says:
shuttap la.
<<>> says:
will pick up the phone from u tmr
RyZuL welcome.to.the.black.parade. says:
ok sure btw abang did call ur mobile la just now, and a few others as well.
RyZuL welcome.to.the.black.parade. says:
u very popular eh?
RyZuL welcome.to.the.black.parade. says:
i switched off ur phone tau
<<>> says:
of coz, I am indeed LIYANA. wuahaahaha.
RyZuL welcome.to.the.black.parade. says:
ah please do me a favour.
RyZuL welcome.to.the.black.parade. says:
Stop shiok sendiri-ing ok

You are soooooooo gonna get it from it tomorrow Ryan Zulhelmy Lee! Joshua Zulfiqar Lee, please take note. I want a revenge!!!! :)

Will post more soon.

Endnote;
Yes denial is a sham. :)

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11/21/2006 11:12:00 PM

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Friday, November 17, 2006

Pt. 1
12:32am

The topic of clubbing, getting drunk and boyfriends came up when Kakak, sexybabe and myself were chilling at Kallang Macs just now. I thought about the first two issues and it occured to me that I don't have much to share on those topics. Coz one, my clubbing days were shortlived (Jams2000) and two, I rarely get drunk. Or at least I only remember that very one occasion I got drunk til I am clueless to who brought me home and left me infront of my gate the next day.

But of course I do remember vividly on how someone got so drunk he threw up all over his Tucson and I had to drive us home, without my specs! And being an emetophile as well as a concerned girlfriend at that point, I managed to get him home safely, tuck him into bed, clean up his car and walk home myself at 4:30am. Yes walk. But it was all worthwhile because the very next day you appeared infront of my gate at exactly 11:42pm with a cup of green apple slurpee in one hand and something else I shall not disclose in the other. Just so you know, it's been with me since then eventhough we're no longer together.

Eh I realised I've been very feely and emo lately.
Why? I also dunno.

But anyways sexybabe if you're reading this, tag me the next time you visit ok. And no worries babe, all's cool. Poppycock is goot aye? hehehe.

Babyboy, I'm missing you.

Endnote;
Toffeenut Frapp is sinful. S-I-N-F-U-L-L!!!

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Pt 2.
11:56pm

Have you guys read EDC's blog lately? If not, go chek it out. I especially am amused with the post about his Lil Ele and its adventures with daddy. hahaha. Damned adorable la EDC!

COLIC was superb! Thai horror flicks are da bomb I tell you, especially for a scaredy cat like moi. Me and Ping practicallly pulled our shirts up to cover our eyes at some scenes. Do go catch it if you have the time and money ok. It's a recommendation.

The programming and organising for SG Deathmetal Fest starts as of now. It's been quite sometime since I last got my hands into the metal scene but I guess it's time I make a comeback. I don't wanna rake the past(damned my $350 burned) but I am somewhat skeptical about this project. I'm not putting high hopes on it, but I'd very much like to get it over and done with without any conflicts and yada yada. And this being the very first DM Fest, let's not get too ambitious and treat this as just "testing the waters".

Marks & Spencers galore for me again today. I need to get my hands on $79 and get this really hot lacy sleeved top. More cash would only mean more additions to my wardrobe. Oh yea, the hot black wedges too!
Monay monay monay!!!

The one I'm dying for. heh.
So before anyone of you puke at the so-unsightly pics of mine, I'll just end here.
Cherios.
Endnote;
Mos Burger Coffee shake, please.

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11/17/2006 11:56:00 PM

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Thursday, November 16, 2006

There's always a reason to why things happen. Perhaps you should reflect and ask yourself why such things happen and you'll reach to a conclusion that you are the one who at least sparked it off. And think before you shoot your mouth off, because it's only probably gonna make things worst as anger and rage simply means you'll talk without thinking.

You feel betrayed, mistrust, whatever. Why? Have you betrayed someone before? Have you not trusted anyone before? You'll understand why eventually.

You wanna put me down, fine. I shall keep up with it. But just remember that I may forgive, I will never forget.

"I get knocked down but I get up again You're never going to keep me down... I'll be singing when I'm winning..."

On another note, I can't wait for this Sunday. 9pm, channel U. Presenting Edison Chen in A1! But eh, I won't be in Singapore this weekend la!
bleah.

2 days of work under the SEF is done. Now on to something else. FOH tonight in school and I'm going back to NAC tomorrow. I need monay monay monay! heh.

I'm missing my AIYA people.
My Tanglin ESOs.
And JZL as well.

Endnote;
lalalalalala...

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11/16/2006 10:27:00 AM

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Wednesday, November 15, 2006

HAHAHAHA!!!!

I just wanna laugh til my head drops off! Human stupidity can be damned hilarious at times.

You don't know that I know, don't you? But I'm pretending that I don't know so you don't know that I know. But for a fact, I've long known about it so balls to you.
blahblahblahblah

And don't judge me on the outside.
I've admitted that I AM indeed a pathological liar.
So like it or not, I'm just like you.
Bitchy, stupid, manipulative and an equal FUCKTARD.

So don't blame the good people.
Blame yoursel(ves).
Coz you said it yourself...
WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND.

And anyways, who am I compared to you, right?
*winkz*

Endnote;
After much thought, why should I stoop down to your level?

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11/15/2006 06:15:00 PM

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Monday, November 13, 2006

SNEAK PICS!
SB2006 Closing Party @ Tanglin Camp
12th November 2006

[ YiLiang.me.Carmen.Robin.PJ ]

[ Kosh.GF.me.Charlene.Herny ]

[ Kush.me.Robin.PJ.YiLiang ]

[ Morris.dunnnowhatshername.YiLiang.me.SBusuncle.Lisa.Annette ]

Food sucked.
Actually there weren't any by the time we arrived!
hahaha.

Nonetheless the company's awesome.
Kudos to Singapore Biennale 2006!
Here's to the newfound friendship and love for the Arts!

Endnote;
Yourstruly never felt so fine!

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11/13/2006 10:59:00 AM

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Sunday, November 12, 2006

2 cans of Tiger, 3 cups of wine and 4 sticks of fags and I'm swaying away.
I've turned lame, and tame.

These things are not for you anymore Yana.
Keep that in mind.

Nonetheless thanks to my sober boys for keeping me sane and safely home.

On another note I think I got what I wanted.
Contacts.
So all's good.

Another long day tomorrow and 2 more days of sheer stress coming my way.

Endnote;
I swear I'm gonna get a massive hangover tomorrow morning! Help!!!

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11/12/2006 11:54:00 PM

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Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Syukur alhamdulillah...

School's out and the Biennale is ending soon so things are much more relaxed these days. The people at Tanglin Camp have been a great bunch and it saddens me that there's only a few days left to the ending of the event. I got an offer from Singapore Dance Theatre; some logistics stuff which would last for a month but I rejected it because I want some time off for the time being. Maybe I'll apply at NAC or NMOS.

Can't wait for the closing party at Tanglin this Sunday!

I'll be back with more updates soon. I'm off to sleep now, to make up for all the loss of sleeptime for the past 4 months! Toodles.

Endnote;
"Ini muka penuh luka, siapa punya?" - Chairil Anwar.

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11/07/2006 09:06:00 PM

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Monday, November 06, 2006

It's 3am. Sing with me, ...pukul tiga pagi, tidurlah adikku...

bleah.

The freaking last assignment for the semester is due in a few hours but in usual procrastinator fashion, I am YET to start typing my first line. I'm just so tired, tired from all the shit that's happening. So lazy, lazy to entertain human behaviour for this world is turning into one huge crcus. So sick, sick of all the crap talking and backstabs. So weak, weak from all the vomitting and a very dysfunctional system. My hand's trembling, my stomach's cramping, my brains totally weakened. But what's worst is my aching heart.

I miss him.
His touch, his smile, his embrace.
But I yearn for one thing... his forgiveness.

His condition worries me and as much as I would like to run away from it all, I do still wanna be there for him til the very end. Perhaps I've finally understood my fear of accepting. It is the fear of losing. Things don't look very promising for him, and I don't mean his paralysis. One after another, his body is failing him. It seems that life's screwing with him even more than it's been screwing me. And to make it worst, I had to rub it in his face by leaving him in the lurch. At times like this I wish I was around to make him feel better, or at least just be there for him as support. Only time will determine his suffering, and God.

I taste a constant sickness in my throat. What have I turned into? Consequences changed me, I'd say. But by the end of the day it boils down to my very own standing isn't it? So why am I still searching for excuses?

The word death scares me, just a lil. I am not afraid to face death, for I know everyone would face it and my time is already set written somewhere. But I am afraid for death means a loss. And although the basic analogy of death applies to all, I am just not ready to let go of something, or someone so dear. But death is unavoidable, God decides when.

Ashadu'alla ilaa ha illallah, wa ashadu'anna muhammadarasullullah...

Life's weakened me. Love's made me numb. Feeling are enraged, but at the same time I'm void.

It's time I get crackin.

Endnote;
Blue skies blue skies.

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11/06/2006 03:10:00 AM

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Sunday, November 05, 2006

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It's weird how my face is getting fairer but the rest of my body is still the same.

Endnote;
Searching for solace, stressing for pain.

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11/05/2006 01:54:00 AM

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Saturday, November 04, 2006

My shift at Tanglin yesterday was smooth. Finally made friends with the ESOs there, as well as the canteen auntie. I want fish nuggets next week okay!! RenRong, you want fish FISHHH nuggets? hahaha. If you look at the contents of the Volunteer Comm Book, you will see my handwriting ALOT. More next week yo!

Anyways, some free advert for my nice people at SB2006.
FREE ENTRY FOR ALL TIL 12/11!!
So come everyone, give us your support!

Went Marks&Spencers frenzy yesterday with Juni. I ended up buying a top which costs me $35. I'm like buying stuff every other day man, not good. I shall stop and start saving. Yea right, let's just wait and see. hahaha.

So here are some pics.

Ok I realised my pose was all the same.
hahaha.
Sorryla, not model material la.

Such bliss.

Endnote;
Corn is love.

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11/04/2006 09:25:00 AM

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Thursday, November 02, 2006

Excuse me coz this is gonna be another one of those negative posts, again. As weird as this may sound, I'm missing all the hectic datelines and jobs which once made me cringe due to its madness. But at least then, it got my mind off the little gritty detalis of this shitty reality.

Relationships, friendships, kinship...
BOLLOCKS TO ALL!

I'm tired of the human traits. I'm not claiming that I'm perfect, infact I'm far from that. But I'm trying my best to improve situations. Perhaps I'm just jaded with the word called "pretense". I don't know who to trust anymore. I don't know who to talk to anymore. I don't know if I should even discuss this issue here anymore.

To my malay LaSalle peeps who are reading this, I apologise because I simply refuse to join you guys for the Raya outing. Don't ask me for reasons. I'm taking the easy way out. There are too many pretencious and hypocritical people in there and I appreciate it if you leave me out of the picture. No hard feelings, nor personal attacks to anyone. It's just MY choice and I do sincerely hope you guys enjoy yourselves that day.

I wanna destroy something, or kill someone perhaps. Well infact I've got a very good candidate to attack. I guess I don't even have to explain further. I haven't done this for a long time, but it is time I start on my Panadol abuse. You know, just to get the kick out of it. And throwing up has now a different purpose altogether. It was initially a plan to lose some pounds, but now to release some anger and hatred and whatever bad vibes there are.

So I question all you general public and my fellow blog readers. What's happening behind closed doors? I can only speculate yours, and you speculate mine.

However amidst all this pale pretense, I really do love you guys. You know who you are. Thank you for making me sane at times of my insanity.

Endnote:
On second thought, perhaps I should just SHUT THE FUCK UP and stop whining like a lil bitch!

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11/02/2006 10:21:00 PM

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