I've decided to move.
AGAIN.
http://the-yanaism.livejournal.com
It is time I start a new chapter in life.
Cherios.
yanaSicked says ok go.
1/05/2007 11:24:00 AM
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Saturday, December 23, 2006
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
Cause I saw the end before we'd begun
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won
So I took what's mine by eternal right
Took your soul out into the night
It may be over but it won't stop there
I am here for you if you'd only care
You touched my heart you touched my soul
You changed my life and all my goals
And love is blind and that I knew when
My heart was blinded by you
I've kissed your lips and held your head
Shared your dreams and shared your bed
I know you well, I know your smell
I've been addicted to you
I am a dreamer but when I wake
You can't break my spirit, it's my dreams you take
And as you move on, remember me
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile
I've watched you sleeping for a while
I'd be the mother of your child
I'd spend a lifetime with you
I know your fears and you know mine
We've had our doubts but now we're fine
And I love you, I swear that's true
I cannot live without you
And I still hold your hand in mine
In mine when I'm asleep
And I will bear my soul in time
When I'm kneeling at your feet
Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one for me
Best describes it.
FUCK.
yanaSicked says ok go.
12/23/2006 11:05:00 PM
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Friday, December 22, 2006
2:55am
I am getting myself into a whole lot of trouble. I hate to accept the fact that things change and I have changed as well. I am contradicting myself; even worst than my accused. I'm sorry Josh. It's hard for me to say but I wanna move on.
Ya Allah, please shine light on the right path for me. All these misunderstandings, change of heart and that newfound friendship; are those signs? I need the strength to say No, the ability to think of what's right and wrong, and make my choices. Tawwakal.
yanaSicked says ok go.
12/22/2006 02:55:00 AM
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Thursday, December 21, 2006
I don't know what to feel at this point. I'm happy to see him, esctatic actually. But the disappointment is overpowering. Is it fair to say that he came back as a different person and I no longer like what I see? Or is it fair for me to overlook all those differences and just live life as per normal, pretending everything hasn't changed a wee bit?
Sigh.
Well physicals aside, he is still the guy I fell for back then, or is he? But he broke our promise and that changed everything. Was it because of my "fear" and rejection that he's turned into this person? I dunno. But I know that it's not right.
Baby I know it's ridiculous but you ask yourself what happened. If we wanna go any further than this, I'd have to say no. I can't change you anymore.
Endnote;
You make the choice Josh.
yanaSicked says ok go.
12/21/2006 11:22:00 AM
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Sunday, December 17, 2006
So it's confirmed. Arrival time in Singapore would be 0549hrs, 21 minutes under scheduled timing.
I'm excited, and I don't know why. hahahaha. Do I miss him? Hell yeah. Do I still love him? I dunno. Does he still love me? That I have to question.
Perhaps it's the distance and absence which makes our hearts grow fonder. Or perhaps it's just all that doodah and anticipation of welcoming a friend home.
But it is gonna end with a farewell once again, very soon.
Fuck farewells for now, I'm gonna spend this 2 weeks with him and make something fruitful out of it. Fort Road, ECP or just the mere garden rendezvous, I AM gonna give him the best experience ever before he leaves.
Welcome home Joshua Zulfiqar Lee.
=)
Endnote;
I'm all smiles.
yanaSicked says ok go.
12/17/2006 04:56:00 PM
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Saturday, December 16, 2006
SEDUCTION STYLE EH?
*raaawwwrrrr*
But quite true la.
Another camwhore day.
weeeee...
Anyone got $200 to spare?
Please get me this red dress.
Pwwweeeaaassseee....
Endnote;
*Just like a star*
yanaSicked says ok go.
12/16/2006 01:20:00 AM
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Thursday, December 14, 2006
Ok I know I'm like technically lagging but I just caught Step Up awhile back and it's an awesome movie. Somewhat similar to Save The Last Dance; well very similar but both scored in my book. A few reasons to why I like these kinda shows;
1. There's dancing, lots of them.
2. Stories about ghetto life; drugs, guns and drivebys.
3. Cliche ending; lead actor/actresses gets to fulfil their dream.
Very typical chick flick isn't it, except that I'm no typical chick but I loved it nonetheless. Now who's gonna dance his way to my heart and sweep me off my feet? That is IF he is strong enough to lift me la. hahahaha.
So here's a piece of bad news. One of my uncles passed away this morning after a few week's battle with complications. Not very sure what went wrong but it's something to do with a growth in one of his major organs bursting, and in which during operation he got a mild heart attack. Been in the ICU on comatose for about 2 weeks or more, got better for awhile and diving back into a coma early this week. I guess his body can't take it anymore and he demised this morning.
Innalillahiwainnailaihirajiuun...
I remembered just about a year ago *someone* got into a coma and I freaked out like hell. Who wouldn't? His EMT was so low we all thought he wouldn't make it but alhamdulillah he's more than alright now. SQ37, 18/12. :)
Liyana Nurhuda misses you.
hahahaha.
I need money to buy clothes! Gimme gimme gimme! Arrrgghhh I'm going delirious!
Ok this diver guy from China looks like a errmmm... down syndrome kid. Ok that's bad. I apologise.
I've got this habit of switching off my mobile very early lately. No reasons why, just felt like it. So unless there's anything super important, wait til morning. Or if it's a life and death situation, then you may call my home. You'll know you're super imporatant to me if you've got my home number. Chey chey chey kerek.
McDonalds' Apple Pie kicks major asses. Eve must have been craving for it then.
Endnote;
Straits Kitchen here I come!... Hello gastoronomic adventure, goodbye to financial liability. blah.
yanaSicked says ok go.
12/14/2006 10:54:00 PM
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